[ Perception is a funny thing like this, isn't it. Because Fabian thinking back on Gorgug's journey to becoming an artificer-- well, sure, maybe it wasn't incredibly poignant or anything, not something you'd read about in some sort of book, but Fabian thinks that actually makes it seem so natural. Like Gorgug slowly discovered something about himself that made him feel better, even if it also frustrated him along the line. Like Gorgug slowly working away at himself the way he works at machines, improving bit by bit with a tenacity that he wears well, from Fabian's point of view.
His own journey doesn't feel like that. It feels like he crashed and burned, and that he was pathetic for a good while back there, even as he tried to pick himself back up. He remembers walking into his first bard class and-- enjoying it, sure, but also the trepidation he felt of wondering whether or not he just made another dumb choice in his life as he walked in. That maybe he wouldn't belong yet again, wouldn't meet the bar yet again. Reinventing himself, only to end up back where he started.
It makes the idea that Gorgug fumbled around more kind of laughable, when Fabian constantly feels like he did a worse equivalent of slipping over a banana peel in public, except a few times in a row.
They're things he doesn't mention though. It's better to focus it less on himself, and more on-- ]
how did you even fumble? come on you have been great besides you really seem to enjoy having found something that doesn't just involve rage
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His own journey doesn't feel like that. It feels like he crashed and burned, and that he was pathetic for a good while back there, even as he tried to pick himself back up. He remembers walking into his first bard class and-- enjoying it, sure, but also the trepidation he felt of wondering whether or not he just made another dumb choice in his life as he walked in. That maybe he wouldn't belong yet again, wouldn't meet the bar yet again. Reinventing himself, only to end up back where he started.
It makes the idea that Gorgug fumbled around more kind of laughable, when Fabian constantly feels like he did a worse equivalent of slipping over a banana peel in public, except a few times in a row.
They're things he doesn't mention though. It's better to focus it less on himself, and more on-- ]
how did you even fumble?
come on
you have been great
besides you really seem to enjoy having found something that doesn't just involve rage