.. I know. [ He says, at least partially conceding. Mostly because he's grateful for what his friends are doing here, for the ways they're reaching out to him in their own ways.
But it's still hard to fully accept, with everything he's learned in his life. Fabian is making some effort now, but it still isn't easy. Though his father's lessons never truly imparted the lesson on him that Fabian should always be a captain and a leader in life in the sense that he should think of his friends as lesser and not trust them - he could never do either of those things, not for real, anyway - they still did impart the feeling within him that he should be independent. That he should be strong enough to solve things like this by himself.
He knows it's not a shame to do so anyway. A logical part of his brain knows this now, but.. it's still hard.
Hard or not, however, he's still very much leading Gorgug inside. ]
It's just-- [ He tries to explain. It's going a little better because he's not as upset as he was back before, back in the hospital, but there's still something awkward about the way Fabian searches for words for things he's never put as obviously out loud before. ]
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But it's still hard to fully accept, with everything he's learned in his life. Fabian is making some effort now, but it still isn't easy. Though his father's lessons never truly imparted the lesson on him that Fabian should always be a captain and a leader in life in the sense that he should think of his friends as lesser and not trust them - he could never do either of those things, not for real, anyway - they still did impart the feeling within him that he should be independent. That he should be strong enough to solve things like this by himself.
He knows it's not a shame to do so anyway. A logical part of his brain knows this now, but.. it's still hard.
Hard or not, however, he's still very much leading Gorgug inside. ]
It's just-- [ He tries to explain. It's going a little better because he's not as upset as he was back before, back in the hospital, but there's still something awkward about the way Fabian searches for words for things he's never put as obviously out loud before. ]
I just want you to think I'm cool.
[ Even as a party member and a friend. :( Bro. ]